Zeus Blackwell Johnson was given to us and taken away, October 13, 2018.
To Our Son
From your Mother:
Nothing feels right without you. I had never imagined what life would be like without you. I had so many things that I wanted us to do. So many things that you were supposed to be part of. Even now as I am writing this, it feels surreal. I never got the chance to hear you cry or hear you laugh but I am grateful for the experience you gave me. You taught me so much in the 41 weeks I carried you. I had never committed to anything before you. You gave me a love like no other. You gave me a bond that I'll never have with anyone else. I told you every day that I love you and I felt you move in the womb every day. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I would like to think you were happy and I would like to think when you passed, you weren't in any pain. You were and still are my everything and I miss you more every day. I was looking forward to having you call me Mommy and going on family trips with you. You were never going to want for anything. You had become part of my backbone and consumed all my love. I'm never going to stop missing you and I know the hurt and pain from your passing is going to be long and unforgiving. But I know that I will be okay because I am going to try to be better for you, and your father has been here for me every day. You are my first born son. My last words to you when I held you were, "Mommy loves you and that will never change. Mommy will always love Zeus until forever ends.
From your Father:
I'm at a loss for words. Seeing you like this breaks my heart to the core. I'd never even thought about this happening. I had so many plans and goals I wanted to reach with you. You look just like your Mom! You have the good Ole Johnson nose though! It saddens me that the world didn't get to see what a treasure you were going to be. I know for a fact everyone was going to know your name around the globe. I promise to keep on going and trying to be great for you. I won't let it be forgotten that you were here and you still are in multiple hearts. I also promise to do my very best to be there for your Mom. We both are not doing very well. When I received the text, it hit my like a brick wall. You have so many clothes and bibs. I love you and will always thank you for giving me endless joy while you were here. I am writing this part after a night to try and let it all sink in. I miss you. I wanted to know your favorite food, sport and what would make you mad; everything I will find out soon. Middle of the night tears are the worse, because I don't want to wake your Mom up with them but it's hard to contain them. I just want to see you one more time. I'm going to continuously ask for that. It kills me that I didn't get to see your eyes or your smile. I want to hear you cry. I went to the fridge to get a soda and almost broke down because your empty baby holder was right there. I prayed to you this morning. I told you I loved at least 30 times. I really do love you son.
Zeus is survived by his mother, Emilyana Blackwell Little; his father, Kishon Johnson; paternal grandparents, Shaniqua Lavine and James Johnson; his great grandmother, Velma Massey; his great grandfather, Louis Massey; his great grandmother, Dian Stanley; great grandfather, Gregory John McCrimmon; maternal grandfather, Jonathan Dix; maternal grandmother, Sonya Dix; and his paternal grandfather, Harry Lavine.
A memorial service will be held 5:00 p.m. in the Remembrance Garden of Wayne Boze Funeral Home, Tuesday, October 30, 2018.
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